23 and no clue.

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I cannot really believe I just turned twenty-three.

When I was thirteen, the idea of being any age more than twenty is quite overwhelming. I always thought people who are those age must know it all. Darn, I guess I couldn’t be more wrong. Here I am being twenty three and still clueless.

I just started my first paying job in my home country for like 6 months ago. It was not what I always dreamed of but it certainly pays the bills. Six months has passed so fast I couldn’t even believe I still stick around, but I am. I work as a customer service staff, which I always had background in since college despite the fact that I hate people. I feel like I have grown a lot working in this job. I know more depth about people I would say. Before working here I would never have thought that some people could be so ignorant. I admire everyone who works in customer service field. It’s definitely one of the most underappreciated jobs because people tend to look down on us and didn’t really think that we are humans as well as themselves.

I don’t know if I would be doing this job for how long as I don’t really see myself in this career path in the future, but I think for now it’s better than nothing. Also it would give me so much experience as the fact that I would know how to handle people from different backgrounds and stuff is still quite challenging from time to time (not always though.)

I hope at this age, I would start getting things together like I should have been since I turned 21. Yet I still feel so young and there is a lot more to explore at this age. I shouldn’t really limit myself and focusing on work so much, right ? There was one part of lyrics of one of my most favorite bands in the whole wide world that goes ‘you are alive but are you living ?’ and it hits home so hard that I always think about that part when I just about to do anything. I hate stepping out of my comfort zone, so that’s why I never ever lived my life to the fullest. I always thought of the safest options first. But what the heck, I think this should be the time that start thinking more about other aspects of my life other than just work stuff.

Let’s just wait and see the next time I came back to this blog post and what’s changing.

 

 

I met Simple Plan.

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After 11 years (aka half my life), I finally met them in person.

HOLY COW I CAN’T BELIEVE THIS HAPPENED I MEAN WHUDDDD

i was shaking and can’t believe anything that was happening.

First Jeff came to us and shook our hand one by one while Seb and Chuck were chilling around waiting for Pierre and David. Jeff was so so nice and shook our hand and look into our eyes like he meant it and I was fucking dying right there.

jeffffff

(So this is me creeping at Jeff while he was talking to other people)

Then after Pierre and David came, the meeting session started.

I was the 3rd or 4th person in the line, and while i was in the line waiting.

JEFF LOOKS AT ME. LIKE THE WHOLE FUCKING TIME (probably cause my shirt is super old. It was a stilling not getting any shirt which is probably 10 years + old).

then my time came. I was so nervous that I forgot to hug them *facepalm*

but I shook their hands one by one and said to them

I WAS LIKE “I’VE BEEN LISTENING TO YOU GUYS FOR HALF MY LIFE”

AND THEY WERE LIKE “WHOA THAT’S CRAZY. THANKS FOR STILL STICKING AROUND”

AND I WAS THINKING LIKE I WAS GOING TO STAND NEXT TO PIERRE AND SEB BUT CHUCK BE LIKE “COME HERE COME HERE”

AND I WAS LIKE OKIE DOKIE BUT STILL MANAGE TO WRAP MY HAND AROUND SEB’S WAIST :3

AND THEN I ASKED THEM TO SIGN MY NO PADS COVER AND THEY WERE LIKE OF COURSE

BUT THE STAFFS BE LIKE HURRY THE FUCK UP ALREADY THERE ARE OTHER PEOPLE

AND I WAS LIKE DAMN YOU I CURSE YOU STAFF

AND THEN I THANKED THE BAND I SAID “THANK YOU SO MUCH”

AND AS I WAS TURNING BACK AND WALKING AWAY DAVID YELLED BACK AND SAID

“NO, THANK YOU”

SO THAT WAS IT.

I didn’t get Jeff’s and David’s autograph cause the staff was literally horrible and it was such a short moment but still it was pretty amazing experience.

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ps. During the song perfect, I was holding the sign that says ‘Thanks for coming back’ and Jeff saw me and he smiled and nodded and at that moment I thought I was fucking at peace with my life and I don’t need anything else at all.

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SEPTEMBER 8th, 2016

Back in those days where tumblr is still a thing : survey no.1

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I first took this 6 years ago, now i’m filling these out to see how I’ve changed.

 

Time start : 2.30 am

Name: PB

Sex: Female

Birthday: June 3th

Sign: gemini

Eye colour: Dark brown/Black

What are you wearing: All Black

Where do you live: thailand

Righty or lefty: Righty

FAVOURITE.

Where is your favourite place to shop: H&M

Colour: black

Number: 3

Boy’s name: Leon

Girl’s name: Katie, Lea

Animal: Cat

Month: June

Movie: Action, Superheroes, Rom-com, Crime, just about anything actually

Juice: Guava

Breakfast: Pancake with bacon

Cartoon character: Ingrid Third from Fillmore!


HAVE YOU EVER.

Given anyone a bath: no

Smoked: no

Bungee jumped: sort of, not exactly the same thing but similar to a bungee jump

Gone skinny dipping: no

Eaten your dog: no …

Put your tongue on a frozen pole: no

Loved someone so much it made you cry: yes

Broken a bone: no

Played truth or dare: no

Been in a physical fight: not really

Been in a police car: no

Been in a hot tub: noo

Swam in the ocean: yes

Fallen asleep in school: a lot

Ran way: no

Broken someone’s heart: possibly ?

Cried when someone died: yes

Cried in school: yes

Fallen off your chair: yes

Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: haven’t we all ?

Saved AIM/MSN conversations: yes

WHAT IS.

Your good luck charm: none

The best song you ever heard: passing afternoon by iron&wine

Your room like: normal, all white

The last thing you ate: KFC

The kind of shampoo do you use: syoss

Do you believe in karma: a bit
HAVE YOU HAD.

Chicken pox: not sure

Sore throat: yes

Stitches: yes

Broken nose: no
DO YOU.

Believe in love at first sight: no

Like picnics: I feel like I would but I don’t go on it often enough, so no.

Like school: no

Would you eat a live hamster for $1,000,000: no

Who was the last person that called you: mom

Who makes you laugh the most: pewdiepie
LAST PERSON.

You yelled at: mom

Who broke your heart: some boy I don’t even have feelings for anymore
DO YOU/ARE YOU.

Do you like filling these out: yes

Do you wear contacts or glasses: no

Do you like yourself: most of the times yes

Do you get along with your family: yes

Obsessive: yes

Compulsive: yes

Anorexic: no
FINAL QUESTIONS.

What are you listening to right now: nothing

What did you do yesterday: going out, walking

Do you hate someone in your family: no

What car do you wish to have:  I don’t drive

Where do you want to get married: in a garden somewhere

If you could change anything about yourself, what would it be: I wish I could be more appreciative.

How many remote controls are in your house: 5-6

Are you double jointed: i’m not sure ?

When was the last time you took a bath: i don’t have a bathtub lol

What was the last movie you saw at the cinemas: the purge election year

Do you like scary or happy movies: a bit of both

Black or white: Black

Root beer or Dr. Pepper: i hate both

Vanilla or chocolate: vanilla

Silver or gold: gold

Diamonds or pearls: diamond

Sunset or sunrise: sunset

Sprite or 7 Up: Sprite

Cats or dogs: cats

Coffee or tea: tea, green tea, milk tea, herbal tea, any kind of tea

Phone or in person: in person

Are you the oldest, middle or youngest child: youngest

Indoor or outdoor: Indoor

 

I barely edit my answer… apparently I haven’t changed in a bit lol

An open letter to Kevin Wu (aka Kevjumba)

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Dear Kevin Wu

Hello. I don’t know if you’re gonna see this or not but I think I’ll take my chance writing this to you anyways. My name is Supanan. I’m from Bangkok, Thailand. I have been a fan for about 6-7 years now.

When I found out that you left youtube, I was pretty upset. I felt left out, like most of your fans did. But then I understand. You did not owe anything to me or to anyone. I guess life just goes on. And you are a real person, not just some character on the show or something. You have your own things to do and I respect that. I still miss your appearance on youtube from time to time though I’m not gonna lie haha. When Ryan or Wong Fu upload any videos that kind of relate to you or even mention your name, my heart still sink a little.

Anyway, I’m just writing this to let you know how much you and you channel mean to me. I know you probably had heard this a thousand times already about how you’ve had inspired someone to do something and how you changed many people’s lives, and I’m just going to reaffirm you that I am one of those people who could say that you really did change my life. I’m now 22 years old and just recently graduated from a college.

I’d been watching your videos since 2009-2010 or around that time. You are my first ever English-speaking youtuber I’ve ever subscribed to.

When I started watching your videos, I didn’t even understand English that much. I only spoke my mother-tongue, which is Thai as my only language. But 6 years later, here I am, graduated from a faculty of Arts in English program thanks to you and your videos 🙂 When I was sad, I knew for sure one thing would made me feel better was to go to your channel and went through your long list of funny videos that could make me forget about bad times in that day. The relationship between you and your father was one of the most real and healthiest relationship I’ve ever seen in media, and I could connect to you a lot as a second generation Chinese in my country also. Aside from that the fact that you chose to do and promote charity when you could use those money to do other things made me respect you as a person even more. I am and will be forever grateful and thankful for everything you’ve ever done. Not a lot of famous youtubers would do what you’ve done to others. Others would probably just donate a money and that would be it (which is already a good thing by the way) but you even went to the actual place and built a friggin’ school ! I was really surprised you had no idea how that meant. Not just to those kids, but you had inspired people to be more like you. At least, me. Never once in my life that I thought that I would care that deep about others. But now I do. I aspire to be more than myself one day, to be like you. You’re a good person and so much more.

Thank you again for everything. My friend once said things about being a fan like “It doesn’t matter if you have met the person or not, but it’s the way they made you become the person you are that really matters” and I guess it’s right. I’m probably never going to see you in real life since I live in different continent than you do, but still I will remember you and your channel as one of the greatest parts of my life. And I hope you’re doing well with your school and everything 🙂

Love,

Long lost fan from Thailand

Supanan W.

Summer

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“What’s wrong ?”

“I was just thinking about how I have to leave soon.”

“Are you worried about us ?”

“I don’t know. Should I be ?”

“We’ll figure things out. In a meantime why don’t we just enjoy things as we can.”

“I just… Well I mean we’re two different people. This is not gonna work.”

“We’ll make it work. Don’t you believe in us ?”

“I have to go soon anyway. So what’s the point ? Why are we lingering ?”

“Wow. We’re like Romeo and Juliet. Except Juliet isn’t as much as willing in this one.”

“…”